When ai needed time to think about life.

When im needing a Time to think ai always walk down to the abandon house down my steet.So ai needed time to think so ai went to the abandon house. It's not what people would think of a house. It's all dusty inside walls are plain with dust and old pictures.All the stuff you would have in rooms. But when ai went up stairs to get into the roof. It looks so nice. You can see the Merrimack river. and all the mountains. When ai get on the roof, ai hang my legs over the edge of the roof and sit thinking about life. But when ai thought about what was gonna happen today with me was not so good ai thought. Only Cause when something ai thought good would happen yesterday turned into a bad thing today.Im just worried if he talks to me that ai will say something that wont help it.

When im on the roof of the abandon house ai always bring my ipod and some drinks.Cause the last time ai needed to think up here. it was for 3 hours. So ai started to think of what would happen if ai decided to move to Canada. My parents wanna move. Ai gave them a couple choices. ai said Canada,New york or Tennessee. They said Canada. But the thing is. ai dont thing im ready to leave here. Shure if ai move ai will see carson and all the other peoples in canada. and even dallas sadly.. But ai dont think ai can do it. Cause if ai move then the abandon house will get knocked down... and ai dont want it to get knocked down... So ai told my parents ai wanted to stay. so ai probably am staying.

Well after 4 hours on top of that abandon House when ai thought about life and the family,ai knew that life was right. But when ai saw him. My eyes froze,then when ai figured out that ai knew him before ai liked him was insane. Ai couldn't think of it as a higher level. But when ai thought about it.. ai knew ai was doing the right thing.

Now till this day (it was only yesterday) ai still think about what will happen.

~ The awesome girl you know Milly.

A queerie thing about me.

Well Ari, ai thank you. for everything that you did for me today. You made me happy. this is the longest time ai have been happy in 1 year. Ari should we tell them what you did for me? well im only gonna say some of it.

Ari and ai were talking. then we decided to walk the dogs. (crow and raven)And then we wanted to walk down the street to get ice cream. So we did.we talked for a while. then Ari's iphone went off. We were gonna be late for soccer practice. we threw the ice creams and ran back to the house. Ai put the dogs in the yard and we got ready for practice and left. After practice we went back to the house.ai went upstairs to my room. Got the laptop and talked to kyle. He didn't know that ai was on house arrest. then the whole time we talked was about how we hate the word "cunt". And then ai went back down stairs to talk to my awesome sister ari. He game he help with a person.. It was a BIG help.. ai needed it.. ai couldn't ask hym. Only Cause ai got a know in my tummy even thinking about it... But now that ai think about it Im starting to think that if ai told hym myself ai wouldn't have tis knot in my tummy..

Well Now im gonna say thank you ari.. So.. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU..... Ai said that so many times ai lost my breath. But THANK YOU ARI!

House arrest

Well... Guys dont get mad at me. But... im under house arrest.

Ai was walking to the store(up center) And then ai saw my friend Paul lattmie.Paul still looks the same. Blue eyes short brown Hair the 1 ear piercing. Well he was in a fight. With a mean tough looking 16 year old. When the 16 year old punched him ai ran towards him with my pocketknife. He saw mw and then he knew who ai was. He stop punching paul and said.. Milly? Ai gasped.And then the voice ai heard reminded me of andrew dellis. Ai gaped with shock and said.. "andrew?" He nodded. Andrew looked different. Scars all around his arms. lips pierced and hair got dyed white.Ai asked "What happened to you?" He didn't speak. Andrew was my old friend. Andrew had anger in his eyes. Paul ran behind me.Then paul thought that he could be brave and walk out from behind me.But andrew walked right up and picked him pu and threw him into a dumpster beside the sub palace. Andrew Came after me with his pocketknife. My hands were frozen and ai couldnt get mine out of my pocket. the knife went down my arms.

When ai saw pauls arm ai ran to him. My blood got all over him. Then Andrew Calls 911 and says " there's a 12 year old girl hurting a 12 year old boy.ai need help Now." Ai could hear the police cars from down the road. When they got here Andrew left.

Ai was taken to a court room the next day. Paul was hurt with a broken leg. So Ai was put into court. Ai got under house arrest. Im stuck in house arrest for 2 months...

So all of you. Dont get mad at me... Ai was helping a friend and got framed. But some of it was my fault. Believing Andrew was nice.

The horrible past life of mine

Well as you know... im not a perfect kid as all my friends. But the baddest thing happened to me yesterday.

As you my know. ai have a step mother. Cause my mother died. Well ai was walking down ferry rd waititng for my friend sam to come pick me up. Well ai decided to walk to his house. So then ai saw my old house. ai haven't been there in 10 years. So ai decided to go into the back yard to see if the flag was there. and it was. everything looked the same. besides one thing. There wasn't any laughter. Ai saw my old porch with built in benches. ai sat in the same corner ai did when ai was 1 - 2 years old. Then ai remembered ai was going to sams house. so ai got up. when ai got up and walked down 3 steps. ai heard a door open. ai looked back. and ai saw my mom there. my real mom. She didn't look right. Ai walked up and said are you Abigale levesque? and She said yes. Ai went into shock. Ai said " ai thought you were dead?" She replied with a No. Ai started to feal bad that my dad ditched her for 10 years.But my question was. Why did he do that?.. My mom seemed happy to see me. Then after a little bit she got angry. She went inside and came back out with a pocketknife. she ran towrds me. Ai walked backwards. then ai remembered that ai have my switchblade. So ai pull it out and walk towards her. Then ai thought ai wouldn't do it. so ai put it back and walked away. when ai jumped the fence ai heard the front door open. She had a broom. a all metal broom. So ai ran for my life. Ai saw my sister Ari. ai screamed for her help.she saw me.She asked. What wrong.. ai said " mom *gasps* with *gasps* broom *gasps*". We decide that she's an old woman. (45) so we will leave her alone.

Then last night. ai had a dream that when my sister Samantha was still alive... my family is Ari, me my mom and dad sam breanna carson and austin. But my sister died by a medical drug over dose. so we had to move. We moved down 15 houses. im still in the house ai moved to 10 years ago. With my family. and most important. my sister who was there for me. Ari.

~ milly levesque

Hi people im back to the blog

Hi people.. sorry ai haven't been posting... life isn't like it used to be.. Well your probably are gonna wanna know whats up with me... so..

Im kinda still the same old emmy (milly).. But im 12.. and im going out with zack again.. But the reason ai left was Cause ai needed time to think.. life isn't what it seems like anymore. When you realize that your gonna be dealing with horrible people.. (besides dal) you can get hurt..

Well ai missed everyone.. and if your stupid and dont know who you are im talking about..
Ari,austin,bre,kyle,keith,Dal(for once),brookie,james,johnny,marker,carson,steve,soda, darry,ponyboy,candie,blair,dawn and elena! all you guys are family to me! Your all amazing in your own special way.. and you should stay like that...

~ milly

The mall day with my sista Ari

Ari and ai decided we needed a gdo (goths day out). So Ari came by and picked me up and we went to the mall... When we were there we saw Dal... and we decided to taze him while kissing bre just for the fun of it. Well we went into the mall and we saw these goth posers.. Perple whp are goth posers are horrible in my book.But so theres posers took ari's bracelet. So we threw a shoe at her and then we tried to get it back.. Well when she walked away she mumbled that it's better on me anyway.. ao Ari and ai kicked her ass.. and got it back..

Ari got a text from austin saying hi and that he hates me.. he was fooling with me.. But he had something for me.. So ai said where the hell are you?. he was in the courtyard.. so Ari and ai sprinted to the courtyard witch was all the way across the building.. Then when we finally got there ai saw a little black german shepeard. Ari and ai were so happy... But we couldn't name him(it was a him) So ari said something gothic and ai thought nate cause of some weird reason... then she said CROW! so ai agreed. Then we went to hot topic after ausin left cause its a GDO not a EDO.. So Ari and ai bought converse shoes (she paid).. After we went to go see N.o.S.e It was awesome.. then she spilled soda in my hair.. so ai put popcorn butter on her face XD Then she had to go.. So ai was stuck walking home in the rain.. thank you ari.. ai got some of the soda out of my hair..

- Milly and Ari

Roscoe

My poor dog Roscoe died yesterday... And ai really miss him.. But my mom and dad are thinking about getting another one.. But should ai agree with them?.. cause he was my dog and all... and we shared the same room... So people here.. should ai?

Gonna kill zack

Zack is a dirtbag mother fucking lair.. Ai wish ai never met him... He should go die ina hole... Ai dont wanna see his little scrunchy assy face... and if ai do see it.. ima gonna bitch slap it and send him to next year..(thanks for the fraze Ari).. So yeah